i'm feelin terrible at this v. moment..

coz

i hurt my dear's heart juz now..

i feel like killin myself juz now.. that v moment when i saw his face reali reali unhappi..

i wish

i wish

to have juz killed myself in a car crash...

dear ignored mi that v moment..

my heart was like smashed into a million pieces..

i cried

he din care..

i beg for him to look @ mi

he din care..

i tried to hug him

he din wan it..

this..

was..

killing mi!

dear...

i'm sori...

believe mi..

i din do anything behind ur back..

u r my everythin..

all that i hav..

i hav alr given u my all

i put in a million times effort on our rltnship

i cant lose u..

i shant LOSE U!

but @ arnd 11pm earlier on..

u wanted mi to go home..

i was scared..

wil it b the end..

i persisted to stay on..

i m so glad u let mi stay...

i sat on ur bed quietly..

though in my heart i was stil crying bitterly..

u juz kept playin ur game..

but..

i'm so glad dear..

that..

for a moment..

u turned arnd..

smiled

n

hinted for mi to go over to ur lap

i was overjoyed!

i hugged u the moment i was on ur lap

i reali m sori dear.. i'm sori..

plz.. believe mi..

i luv u..

i nv do wrong things bhind u

i m reali glad we r ok

but i cud feel that our trust bond has once broken again..

=(

i wan to recover it again..

i luv u dear..

i reali do..

sori i made u angree

i cried bcoz i luv u..

i cried bcoz i cant lose u..

i cried coz i'm afraid u wil leave mi..

i'm sori dear..

i'm sori

if u read this..

i wan to sae..

i ("v") u v much

i luv u dear...

* amanda
* angelina
* aziela
* chelle
* cindy
* dan
* darrel
* dian lestari
* gerselle
* huiwen
* iskandar
* jowin
* julie
* june
* lawrence
* lijun
* naomi
* nicholas
* qisheng
* shanwen
* shuying's xanga
* shuying


* VS's Angel: Alessandra Ambrosio
* Blessed Haven's recipe
* friendster no. 1
* friendster no. 2
* multiply
* liverpool


* my favourite: Victoria's Secret
* get BLUSHEd.'s accessories
* Luv Shoppy
* miss dejavu
* Nixus Flava
* raveon
* SHOPPERSPREE :]<3
* t he .JI A MI N . s ho p
* Tinkerbelle Shoppe
* trinityknots.


* Audi A8 car
* Lexus GS 300
* New laptop
* Be an SIA stewardess
* *if not* Be a wedding planner
* Puppy! *breed wise? beta consult mi 1st!
* Victoria's Secret lingerie or clothin
* X-BOX 360 for my dearie's birthdae!
* Hope dearie can get his driver's license asap!


* DEARIE!

* eeyore
* mil mil
* travelling
* meeting up with my dearie
* having good food
* sleeping
* mushrooms
* sambal sotong from blk 85
* cooking
* dearie's instant noodle
* driving
* dogs
* sirloin steak = medium rare
* teppanyaki
* korean love show
* takin photos
* prawns cooked in any style
* bacon cooked by dearie
* mashed potato
* thinly sliced beef wrapped with Enoki mushroom
* brazil churrascaria's food!
* sashimi


I don wan to miss these impt dates!

* Mine : 09 Nov 1985

* Dear : 26 August 1982

* Mildred : 24 July 1986
* Ben : 23 August 1981
* Nic : 17 Oct 1983
* Sis : 06 Nov 1979


* November 2002
* December 2002
* January 2003
* February 2003
* June 2003
* July 2003
* June 2004
* July 2004
* August 2004
* May 2005
* November 2005
* December 2005
* January 2006
* February 2006
* March 2006
* April 2006
* May 2006
* June 2006
* July 2006
* August 2006
* September 2006
* October 2006
* November 2006
* December 2006
* January 2007
* February 2007
* March 2007
* April 2007
* June 2007
* July 2007
* September 2007
* October 2007
* November 2007
* December 2007
* January 2008
* February 2008
* March 2008
* April 2008


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