new blogskin.. *i reali like this new 1*

hope mil iz not angree wif mi alr.. haiz..

well.. i took 2 + hrs to find this skin, edit.. n edit.. check n check again n again.. lol.. finally its done.. but i din reali do it by myself.. most of the codes were from my earlier blog.. juz that this time.. i juz figure everything out by myself..

*v proud of myself*

hahah!

*sigh*

yesterdae's maths paper was a total FLOP.... again!.. =( i did my practices n revision yesterdae morning.. but when i got my math paper.. i forgot how to do it alr.. =( it was a ez paper.. but i was so tense n nervous.. that i juz forgot everything!

nvm abt wat hapen yesterdae....

got daddy a new hp.. usin my $65 voucher from M1.. dad iz too happi abt it alr.. haha.. don think i so nice to buy dad a new phone ok... he juz needs 1... he has been grumbling at mi for don noe how mani mnths abt his sucky phone.. he kept insisting that i accompany him to the M1 shop to upgrade my line n get a new camera phone wif bluetooth device for him.. so i finally got it for him todae.. a new Sony Ericsson Z520i.. dad din wan any x phone.. so i got him this phone.. v cheap.. hahah.. onli cost mi $35.. *lol*

i cooked todae!!!!

had to b fair for my baby.. so todae iz my turn to cook..

i did not cook as much as wat my baby did..

all i cooked todae was bacon, cocktail hot dogs and onion rings... n i had our big frozen mushroom pizza microwaved.. lol..

ps: our mushroom pizza was toooooo SALTY! don go for this brand call Ristorante.. their frozen mushroom pizza iz tooo salty alr.. dear n i finished up his bottle of cold water juz bcoz of that pizza.. haha!

*v ez job todae.. lol*

its reali nice to c baby enjoy the food that i've cooked for him.. a sense of satisfaction! =D

anyway todae's productivity paper was kinda ez.. thanks to my undying determination.. *lol* i force myself to stay awake last nite til 3am to memorize all the tips b4 i head to bed... but.. most of the tips i memorize.. was kinda gone this morning.. took mi 15 mins to recall everything b4 i head to sch.. hahah! reali hapi that i din leave any blanks in that paper.. hahah! *COOL*

gonna hav english paper tml.. *piece of cake* english canot study de.. u noe means u noe..haha!

well.. i gonna end here alr.. need to start editing my other proj which iz due on fridae..

baby aslp alr.. *miss u so much!*

another dreadful dae i'm facin todae.. *thats for the earlier part of the dae*

Cost Control paper is another flop paper too.. haiz...

scribble nonsense to the paper.. formula? all wrong.. all rubbish.. haha!

anyway i hate despicable pple who try to copy the test or exam paper using a piece of paper.. wif all the ans on it.. put it underneath the exam paper n copy.. y r there pple like that.. do it once iz ok.. but not like soooooo mani times like thru out all the whole few semester rite!!! omg.. makes pple wan to vomit blood.. every1 dreads sitting bside that idiot.. i guess if u're my classmate.. u wud noe who i m tokin abt..

on my way home todae.. there was a serious accident.. i wasnt the 1 who caused the accident.. haha.. but the accident was caused by a bus and a mini van..

the mini van flipped.. n the front part of the bus *left side* was badly damaged.. even the front part of the buses' mirror was all smashed to bits..

it caused the PIE Changi route to b stuck from Eng Neo exit n down..

well.. miss my baby now..

heee... had so much fun @ dearie place..

dear.. i luv ur doggie lil xpression.. SO ADORABLE.. *muackz*

dear aslp alr.. he has to wake up early later.. gonna send him to work.. *smilez*

i heard a reali lovely love song todae.. v sentimental and iz a v catchy kind of song .. n its for u my dear *love u*

dearie jus gone to bed.. alr missin him loads..

todae econs paper iz a total FLOP.. i gave up on the paper the moment i woke up.. coz i hadnt had time to study it.. i did my proj til 4.. i told myself to wake up @ 8am but i din.. i woke up @ 12 in the end. *sux* reali regretted slpin.. so tonite.. i wont slp so early again.. gonna mug til i grow panda fur..

28th March 2006.. special n v memorable dae!

dearie's 1st time cookin a proper meal for mi.. count out the daes when he cook instant maggie mee for mi.. but todae he cooked mi a reali lovely meal..
well.. i bought the ingredients n he cooked.. hahah.. feel so happi n so loved that he sacrificed his skin *the splattering oil*.. his time.. his games.. juz to cook dinner for mi.. luv u so much dearie.. i love all the dishes u cook tonite.. *so delicious!*

gonna bug u more in the future to cook for mi...

give dearie a 100 upon 100 for his excellent cookin!

gonna hav Cost Control Exam paper later.. *sux* wudi sianz.. i'm scared.. this term's exam r tough.. *sux* omg!

alritie.. gonna end here.. n start muggin alr..

i m reali xhausted..

i've yet study for my Microeconomics paper.. =(

i can sae that i'm reali worried n scared.. coz this term's paper r reali v hard.. haiz.. i reali don like..

my head hurts.. the inner brain iz in such pain that i reali wan to go n rest.. but i cant.. i dare not.. i don wan to fall aslp.. i scared if i'm gonna slp.. i definitely wil wake up v late! then i canot study alr.. haiz.. i don wan that.. that was wat hapened to mi to my Cost Control test.. haiz... canot..

alrite.. enuff of the headache n stuff...

i had a hapi time stayin over at dearie's place.. 2nd time in a wk.. hee.. v hapi!

we had hapi times until late in the nite.. when we went out for our dinner at arnd 10pm.. it was a late dinner.. but its ok.. coz dearie was watchin soccer (Liverpool against some other club).. so we went to Blk 85 to have our dinner.. dearie's 2 other fren oso came along.. Dog & Fur (their IRC nickname) well.. it was at this point of time i got a lil angree.. coz i had ordered a few dishes for the 4 of us.. there was Fried Oyster, Chicken Wings n porridge for every1..

Fur came a lil late.. so i had order a medium size plate Fried Oyster.. coz Dog said that Fur will share the Fried Oyster wif mi n dear.. but when the food came.. Fur then told us that he doesnt like to eat Fried Oyster.. then i got furious.. coz medium plate was juz too much for mi n dear to handle... how can the both of us finish.. i kept tellin Fur to finish coz dear n i reali cudnt finish all the Fried Oyster.. but he juz kept tellin mi that he don wan to eat.. at this point.. i reali wanted to take my drinks n pour on him!! *v bad of mi.. but that was how i felt that point of time*

then.. maxine called mi... she was unhapi wif the way the project intro n ending turned out.. i reali wanted to tell her.. spare mi some life.. i'm tired.. my brain cells have all drained up alr.. n she had the guts to msg mi to tell mi that she had put in A LOT OF EFFORT into the project.. haiz.. its not as if i din!!! but i'm reali tired.. i din wan to think.. so i juz wrote 1 simple 1.. but the way she had said abt mi in the msg reali pissed mi off... nvm... then she called mi to explain abt the project.. i reali don wan to ans her call.. nvm.. i answered.. i controlled.. i sounded happi.. but i wasnt.. i showed my unhapiness infront of dear n his fren.. but i reali cudnt tolerate it.. dear n his fren was juz pure shock..

ok nvm.. ended the conversation wif maxine alr.. nvm.. i asked FUR 1 more time.. if he wanted to help us wif the Fried Oyster.. stil he don wan.. v stubborn idiot.. this point of time.. i was boiling alr.. nvm!

then i gave dearie his fav oyster.. well seriously.. i prefer fresh oyster.. rather than those fried oysters kind.. but i had no idea y.. i like this particular stall @ Blk 85.. they sell the nicest Fried Oyster.. but dear.. do u noe abt someting.. most of the time when we hav that dish.. i don eat the oyster.. i don noe y.. i hate the taste of it.. most of the time i will gif u the oyster while i juz eat the eggs n starch.. lol.. but sometimes i wil hav a few of the oyster.. juz 1 or 2 onli..

dear sori.. i got angree with u at blk 85 bcoz u din wan to eat up the oyster i gave u.. hahah! sori..

i drove back to dearie's place feelin super wu di unhapi.. stil bearin grudges wif the bodoh FUR! n the awful msg i receive from maxine.. so nvm.. i calm myself down.. i tried to edit the intro n conclusion for the project again.. when i was done.. i ask dear when wil he b done wif his game.. *he was playin CS then* he replied mi wif such force, anger n unhapiness.. that point of time.. i blew! not wat i mean as i blew my top or wat.. but i kept it to myself.. inside my brain iz like volcano ERUPTION alr! nvm.. since dear wanted to play.. i let him play lo. i don wan to bother alr. i don wan to send anything to maxine alr.. so i juz continue to do my other proj..

then dearie finish his game alr.. he told mi that i cud use the com alr.. but i reali din wan to... coz i reali had no mood to use his com anymore coz of how he had answered mi... mayb i'm being petty or wat.. but i reali din like the way he tok to mi..

ok nvm!

i told him to continue wif his game.. n dearie did.. haiz..

so i continue to do my other proj (productivity studies project).. well.. this time my inner self volcano erupted again.. coz i juz cudnt get my milestone graph rite.. it juz keep goin into farni shapes wheneva i paste it into my microsoft word.. it got mi so freakin frustrated.. imagine u spend over an hr tryin to get it rite.. but it stil turn out wrong.. *f**k*

that was it.. the ultimatum!!!!!

i decided to go take a shower....

in the shower.. i wanted to scream n cry.. but i didnt dare.. coz i was afraid to wake his family up... n i din dare to cry coz i don wan dear to qns mi y i cried.. so after shower.. which was like comin 4am in the morning.. i decided to slp.. i slept wif reali reali wet hair.. *water stil drippin down* place a towel over dearie's pillow.. covered myself under the blanket.. i didnt slp at all.. i was practically cryin underneath the blanket.. i hated everything that happened that nite.. i wasnt happi... things didnt turn out well n happi.. stayin over at dear's place shud b happi.. but i wasnt.. i was so angree.. i wanted to scream.. but i din.. =(

i kept myself awake.. until dear decided to stop playin his game.. he wanted to slp... he lay bside mi... he called mi.. i din wan to ans him.. he juz wanted to hug mi.. sae he's sori.. but i reali din wan to hear any of that.. i was so unhapi wif the nite.. i finally answered him.. but i wasnt interested to tok to him.. so in the end.. he lay bside mi feelin unhappi.. at this point i burst into tears.. dear hugged mi... i felt loved but i was stil unhapi.. in the end.. dear fell aslp.. n i remove his arms that was wrapped arnd mi.. i reali din wan to hurt his hands. i was afraid he might feel the cramps in the morning.. so i juz took it away.. i slept in the corner.. but b4 i cud go to slp.. i cried again.. tellin myself how much i hated the nite.. my proj.. my sch.. the things arnd mi.. n how much dear ans mi juz now... i reali hated it..

*i hate the idea that as i'm writin this.. i'm cryin.. thinkin abt wat happen last nite*

i woke up this morning.. feelin beta.. i hugged dear... i was happi at least.. that the morning was lovely.. sun rays shining into dearie's room.. pity by the time we woke up was almost noon alr..

well.. productivity studies n econs proj are finally done.. i'm so happi that its over! DONE.. ONCE N FOR ALL.. i reali cant wait for the term break to come.. i wan to go for some reali enjoyable fun wif dear.. haiz! CANT TAKE IT ALR.. on the verge of breakdown!

*baby.. sori i wrote so much abt the unhappi things.. i noe u wil b angree.. sori.. don angree ok.. i reali luv u.. *

i hate it when my face feel oily again after havin a meal!!!

*argh*

so irritated by it!

baby iz fast aslp.. cant ask him to wake up.. he has to work later.. he shud b up in another 2 hours or so... miss him loads... cant wait to stay over @ his place later.. gonna hug him to slp so badly!!!

yeppie.. i'm all joy n smiles.... coz todae iz the last dae of work.. i haven leave that dreadful place yet.. but iz bcoz nxt wk iz my exams.. i've asked for a week off.. lol.. gdie.. no need to feel so stressed up anymore.. lol...

anyway.. i cant believe those coach driver from my company r so superstitious.. they don like it when gers sit on their driver's seat.. coz they worry whether if we r "clean" or "dirty" wth! *gers.. u shud understand wat i'm tokin abt* but i reali hav no choice but to sit on their seat once.. coz i find it reali hard to jot down their driving meter.. i hate to bend down so often juz to jot it down.. *argh*

sux.. the tot of project incomplete erks mi!!! maxine msg mi juz now.. ask mi if project iz done.. i reali wanted to tell her the truth that NOTHIN iz being done yet... i juz chuck them all aside.. oh bother bother.. reali irritating!!! *BLEAH!*

i cant wait to c my baby later! i reali cant! wan to gif him the biggest n tightest huggies eva!

how was work todae?

stressful.. unhappi.. irritated...

i don like.. haiz.. i wanted to stay wif dear.. so i gave an xcuse that i was not feelin well.. well they let mi off.. but sis said that it wud b beta that i go c a doc n get a MC.. haiz.. like that wats the point..

dear n i had a small tiff over this matter.. he reali wanted mi to keep him company.. but he wanted mi to go to work bcoz he din wan mi to waste money on the MC.. haiz.. i oso don wan to.. but in the end we stil quarrelled bcoz dear din wan to help mi decide whether to work a not.. haiz.. not angree wif dear.. coz he wanted mi to make the decision myself..

well.. i went to work.. unwillingly.. v unhappily.. but i definitely miss dear while i was @ work..

there's 1 thing i reali luv doin wif dear.. is when i'm in his arms.. hearin his heart beat.. n havin his lips on my forehead.. its so nice.. so comforting.. so warm.. so nice..

i'm hungry rite now.. at this v moment.. i don noe wat to eat.. lol oso a bit lazi to cook...

there's 1 thing i don noe whether to tell my sister or not..

the place i'm workin at rite now.. my bro-in-law mum likes to delay payin her staff their pay.. geez.. i'm not reali that shocked.. coz my sis hasnt collected her pay for a few months alr.. sis iz not angree or v fussed up abt money... coz my bro-in-law pays for almost everything..
but the worst thing i heard todae iz that... bcoz of the delay.. so mani stuff has actually taken some money out of the drawer as a credit loan kind.. omg.. w/o lettin the boss know.. i'm reali shocked when they told mi that.. its a terrible act.. i cant sae iz loan but more like stealing money from the company..

shud i tell my sis?

i don noe.. its reali v scary!!!

nvm abt work.. i'm stil in a dilemma whether to tell my sis abt it...

well when i got home from my work.. my clsmate, Maxine called mi up luffin... at 1st i was wonderin wats wrong.. wats so farni.. then she said she needed to come n look for mi super urgently.. n she didnt wan to tell mi on the phone.. i was so worried like wat the hell iz goin on!

so i said ok..

while on her way to my house.. she called mi again.. n she told mi wat the matter was.. it was actually.. she went out wif this guy customer.. whom i believe has a crush on my fren.. she went out wif him w/o tellin her bf, Stanley.. stanley called her in the late afternoon or evening (i cant remb) to ask her where she was.. she said that she was @ my place.. well.. 1 thing she shudnt hav said was that she iz at my place.. hahah.. coz wheneva stanley call my fren maxine.. i'm always makin a lot of noise in the backgrnd.. so when stanley found something was fishy.. she asked my fren whether if she was reali at my place.. my gongster fren said she was at my place.. but it was v obvious thru her voice that she was lyin.. so maxine rushed to my place.. so that i cud help her cover up.. haha! boi.. was she farni! she was luffin so badly when she saw mi.. tellin mi abt everything..

*weird isnt she*

i managed to help her salvage the prob..

did u noe.. she came to my place from town in a cab.. stayed in my car for 15 mins juz for the sake of callin stanley n explainin to him.. then took a cab back to her own home..

haha! waste money sia.. back n fro! lol..

oops 1 more thing.. stanley wud know that my fren, maxine iz lyin bcoz the both of them hav been stayin together for 5yrs alr.. both of them r hongkonger actually.. hahah.. but stanley iz a PR in s'pore..

rite now.. i'm watchin some taiwanese show.. lol.. those ancient era where there iz emperor.. pple usin knife n spear to kill each other kind.. n the princess r all v old.. not even young at all.. n the pple in the past.. like plus size woman as their wife.. haha! i hav no choice to watch it coz its the onli nicest show @ this hr..

k la i shall end here.. i reali miss my dear..

some photos taken a while back wif dear.. @ cine..

anyway work sux todae.... my colleague iz reali startin to get on my nerves soon!!! argh!

i don wan to tok anymore abt work.. i'm slpy actually.. freakin gif up on wantin to continue on my proj.. leave it for tml...

*procrastination iz the thief of time*

yes! i luv to procrastinate.. its in my blood.. when proj gets the best of mi.. this iz the result! i hate doin proj.. hate it!!! SUX!!!

well.. i'm stil not sure whether if i wan to work tml! argh.. i'm tired.. i wan to stay home to do proj.. i reali wan to! omg....

well.. got this reali farni video from my fren, Lawrence.. its a reali farni video clip.. main lead iz a s'porean.. location iz @ Orchard... ! i reali admire the person to hav the guts to do this clip! *rock on*

bored to the max alr.. =(

no mood to proceed on wif the project stuff.. wan to slp but i cant.. i hav headaches wheneva i try to slp...

*sux*

i caused dear to be late for work todae.. he was so freakin pissed wif mi.. its so scary to think abt it.. his face was so black.. blacker than usual.. he was so impatient.. he din wan to tok to mi.. all i can sae he was juz f**kin angree wif mi for being late... haiz..

i didnt wan to b late.. but my mum wasnt out of the house yet.. dad questioned mi y i wan to leave house that early for.. when they knew i'd start sch @ 9 in the morning.. haiz..

i'm sori dear.. sometimes i reali wan to drop the idea of eva sendin u to work.. coz i noe if i'm late.. u wil b angree.. haiz.. so sori.. but i canot don send u to work... i did this willingly for u.. coz i wan to c u so much.. but i juz hate the idea of reachin late to ur place.. haiz...

so sori..

i cried after u alighted.. though u msg mi to xplain y i shud not msg u after i hav alighted u.. i stil feel sad.. coz ur reaction b4 u left the car.. stil i noe it is my fault.. haiz.. but its reali sad.. u were that frustrated.. haiz..

went to school wif a down mood.. cls was pretty much half pretty.. the usuals din come for this optional cls.. i xpected it.. got the tips from our trainer.. was definitely happi that cls ended early coz Mr Vincent Tan wasnt arnd..

wat a dae.. was drivin home on the xpressway.. n i saw 2 different TPs bookin 2 different cars but there iz 1 thing in common iz that both cars r red plates.. lol! that means they are not allowed to b driven on wk daes or even durin the time of 7am-7pm.. if i'm not wrong..

i tot 1 of the TP was comin for mi.. as he drove so fast to my lane.. then he came nxt to my car.. lol.. but luckily he saw the Hyundai Gets "red plate" vehicle.. n decided to book that car instead.. *phew*

rite now.. stuck @ home.. canot play maple.. told dear i wont b working.. but i think i wil go to work.. i wanted to b @ home to finish up my proj work.. but since my trainers hav decided to let us submit our work nxt wk.. think i wil go to work.. coz its a lil too late to call office to tell them that i'm not comin.. i had actually tot of a fake xcuse to tell them n that iz i

m not feelin well.. haha! k la.. i noe dear wil b angree wif mi for being so fickle minded..

geez.. my x-colleague from Marina Mandarin's Lounge, Amber juz called mi.. shocked mi.. she wanted to ask mi out for some coffee/tea session.. lol.. but i reject her.. cudnt go.. hav to work... anyway.. she's a nice lady juz a lil cocky.. but she's stil nice..

rite now..

i'm in a mixed emotion.. haiz! i don noe y..

feelin sad.. bored.. moody..

i'm goin crazy alr.. i don noe how to do the productivity studies proj.. my mind iz xploding.. none of my clsmates r online or even @ home to help mi! if not they r not answerin my call nor sms.. omg... y like that!!! *stress*

i wan to cry alr.. dear!!!!

wat a boring nite @ wrk.. not mani pple came... onli 2 buses.. so borin..

spent most of my time eatin lil bits of junks food here n there.. lol.. pretty boring....

daddy bought mi Chicken Fantastic Meal.. eeEee!!! i'm not sayin that my dad buy iz no gd.. i'm so happi he bought mi that.. but then the Chicken Fantastic Meal taste disgusting.. i hate the taste of the rice.. *yuckz* >.<

oh well.. miss baby now.. we juz toked on the phone.. but i'm still missin him so badly.. he's workin @ 7am later.. don like.. canot send him to work.. =(

*miss u dear*

my net iz up n kickin.. amazingly.. darn wireless modem of mine.. went crazy for 2 daes.. making it so hard for mi to go online... i cud die w/o 4 things.. my bf.. my money.. my hp.. n my internet! canot live w/o!

so much things i wan to write abt.. think i wil start wif last fri.. hee...

i'm so happi that i stayed over @ baby's pl.. it's been so long since i went to his place bcoz of work.. but its reali gd to b in his room again.. i miss his bed! i was suppose to go home.. but i decided not to go back home.. coz i reali wan to keep baby company =)

but it was sad that saturdae i had to go to work.. cudnt keep baby company.. i noe he was a lil unhappi that i had to leave.. but i had no choice sis insisted that i had to go to wrk.. =( well.. its ok.. we manage to c each other that nite.. =) but i was reali sad that baby n his fren went to marche.. =( so gd.. i cudnt.. in the end i had burger king for my dinner...

well... hav u watched "V for Vendetta" i cant sae its not a nice show... the fightin n bombin scenes were reali nice.. but i juz don reali understand abt everything.. the endin was kind of predictable actually.. it was onli when i came back home to read abt the review of the movie review.. onli then i knew wat the story was all abt.. FREEDOM! lol! *darn* *ps: my internet died after that...! canot come online!*

cudnt use my home net to blog.. so i'm @ my baby's place to write this blog

my net line will only b repaired on tue.. =(

sch hols wk for mi.. well.. iz reali more like study wk actually coz exam iz comin soon.. =(

going crazy wif my work... cudnt cope well wif it.. cant company dear..

sux.. i reali got no mood to blog much now.. i reali wan to go home coz its so late le.. yet dear don wan let mi go home coz he stil watchin soccer haiz.. die la.. sure get scoldin when i get home de..

i juz cudnt help but not cry when i think abt wat had happened todae...

so much unhappi n v idiotic things happen to mi...

1st.. i had to endure my fren who sits bside mi kind of behaviour... i don noe y.. but the way she eat.. tok to mi.. drink.. move.. tickle mi.. n even that smoke stench from her breathe which irks mi so much.. i don noe y..
i hav nv dislike those bad habits of hers.. but these few daes those stuff has been gettin on my nerves.. i don noe. .i wan to change this.. mayb its of my PMS.. *haiz*

2ndly.. i got the chance to meet dear todae.. but stil we ended up quarreling.. not his fault. juz was mine....
b4 i met up wif dear.. we were msgin each other.. i wan to c him.. but he was tired.. then when he wanted to c mi.. i din wan to coz i noe dear iz tired.. n this made him a lil angree.. ok.. nvm.. then when i drove to Bencoolen Square (beside Sim Lim Sq) to pick up dear.. i was wonderin... m i goin to send him back or juz eat then i go to wrk.. well.. i guess i knew the ans.. dear was tired.. though he suggested he wan to eat wif mi.. but i noe he was tired after wrk n the small shoppin spree @ Sim Lim..
finally reach dear pl.. i noe he was reali tired.. but i juz do not noe y i was in such a black face mood.. too black alr.. like Bao Zhen.. i cried when dear was abt to leave.. he then got angree wif mi cryin bcoz i was startin to presume things.. like i presume that he was unhappi wif our rltnship.. unhappi wif mi n mani other things.. dear got so angree that he shouted @ mi in the car.. it scared mi when his tone got too stern.. =(

well... i hugged dear b4 he left the car.. but he din hug mi @ all.. i don noe y.. but he cud hav juz put down that curry puff packet he was holdin in one of his hand to hug mi.. but i din even feel his hands arnd my back.. but it was juz mi huggin him so tight.. haiz.. nvm... *forget it* =

but in the end we're ok after a few msges.. haiz..

3rd.. it has been 3 daes wrkin @ sis's place.. n i'm gettin more n more frustrated wif everything.. the way thing iz running. .their system.. pple scoldin mi on the phone for NO REASON juz bcoz they lost their baggage.. iz that my prob? but y i stil cant cope wif the work load there... i'm reali tired to the core alr.. haiz.. i cried 3 times juz bcoz of work.. my sis doesnt wan to hear my explaination abt the mistake i did but instead she juz reprimand mi like that.. haiz.. v unfair.. =( my bro-in-law's mum iz so mean.. she wud scold mi in front of all the customer.. pin-pointing on my mistake.. this is so demoralizing.. i cudnt take it.. i tot when i c my sis i can cry out.. but instead i got scolded for cryin.. but its reali so unfair...

dad doesnt wan mi to wrk there anymore.. i reali hope to.. but i don wan c sis strugglin w/o havin sufficient amt of manpower.. i don wan to c her suffer.. she's my sis but yet i reali hated the way she was treatin mi.. =( *sobs* i juz wish she cud listen to mi.. n console mi...

i finally learn something.. iz when i wan to cry.. DON SHOW OUT MY EMOTION.. i'm tired of quarrellin wif pple for scoldin mi to stop crying.. i don wan it anymore... wateva prob i stil prefer to keep it to myself.. i don wan to tell anybody abt my unhappi stuff alr.. no matter how unhappi.. i wil juz cry in the toilet n write them in the blog.. thats it.. i reali had enuff..
i tot when i called u.. u cud listen n console.. or juz simply tolerate mi cryin on the phone while i vent out my unhappi stuff to u on the phone.. but instead u juz said to mi on the phone in such fierce tone.. that work is like that.. n u told mi to stop cryin.. how can i stop.. i'm a ger.. i'm not like u so strong can tahan!!! i cant.. =(

my mood now iz reali super duper ultimately down.. i cant stop cryin now.. reali.. i'm like in such down shitty mood.. haiz...

i think i wil stop here now..thats all the unhappi thing that had happened to mi.. =(

thats how heart-pain n sad i m.. i juz cant stop cryin...

after a tiring dae of school n work... i'm almost out of fuel...

1st dae wrking at my bro-in-law office iz reali killing mi.. i'm drained by all the telephone calls.. all the walk-ins buyin tix... learning all the new pricing.. n auntie sally's horrible unrecognizable hand-writing.. >.<

dear.. listen to the song from my blog.. its tellin u how much i luv u... reali..

u've been part of life.. a deep root implanted in mi.. some1 i canot lose dearly.. too afraid to lose it.. tears will flow if i lose it.. its juz that space specially kept tightly for u.. wif u in mi.. i noe i wil b safe...

i luv u dear...

i don noe wat to do now.. feelin a lil lost @ this point now.. =/

not in the mood to slp yet...

these 2 daes been having home cooked food @ dearie's place n love it so much... coz his parents cooked my fav food.. yesterdae there was bacon.. n mushroom too.. oOooh! i luv it.. nice.. n todae.. i had sausages n 2 pcs of bacon that was from yesterdae (>.<) n old cucumber soup.. v nice.. *delicious*

i stil feel a lil bad for makin Mr Lim, my math teacher angree... i noe i shud go n apologize to him.. but i juz cant seem to get the opportunity to tell him that.. =( *sigh*

anyway my car iz finally back.. had to wait for so mani daes to finally get it back.. luckily i don hav to pay a single cents.. *lol*

well.. i had an interview yesterdae wif Mr Chong Hai Po from Conrad... he was the F&B Director / EAM of the hotel.. how cool! we had to wait for him for like comin to an hr b4 we got the chance to sit down for a proper interview.. the interview we had was long.. v long.. but i guess it was all worth it.. maxine did most of the tokin... i was the 1 listening.. n angeline was pretty much in her own realm alr.. lol! v cute of her! but nv-the-less.. it was an enriching interview.. he was way too experience.. but there were a few words he said that pretty much irked us.. he kept emphasising on "TEACH", "DISCIPLINE" and mani more.. oh bother! it made us freaked out when we replayed the whole recorded interview session on my hp..

we didnt go back sch after the interview.. we were tooooo hungry to even go back.. so in the end.. we went to Suntec City for our lunch.. *yummy* we went to Kenny Rogers for our lunch.. n i was shocked to find out that it was the 1st time that angeline tried Kenny Rogers stuff.. lol... imagine 3 gers sitting down for lunch.. wat more cud u expect from us.. but gossips? we were gossiping abt so much stuff that recallin them back now.. can b reali farni.. lol.. not only that.. we oso went shopping after that.. haha v noti of us.. =P

well.. i guess i'll most prob end here.. i'm stil not sure if i wan to go for my cls's party reali..

gd nite..

*luv u dear* =*

i am on the verge of falling aslp any moment from now...

i've stayed up all night jus to finish up the Cost Control Project..

i've done my part.. now onli left the part that needs maxine to do...

i'm reali xhausted.. gonna go sch soon.. daddy sendin mi to Marsiling MRT then i'll take a train to school...

no choice.. NO CAR!!!! my car iz stil under repair @ Chevrolet's service centre.. why izi stil there since last fri? i'll xplain another dae when my car iz back....

i went to dearie's grandmama's last dae of the wake.. it was reali a heart-wrenching sight to c them crying.. we did our last lil prayer b4 every1 left for the Mandai Crematorium.. imagine all the daughters and sons of grandmama Agatha crying bitterly.. made mi cry too.. i felt sad.. coz i remb how grandmama Agatha gave mi ang pao last yr.. and her cheerful-ness.. and when grandmama was bed-ridden @ Tan Tock Seng Hospital due to stroke.. its reali sad to c her on the bed.. i stil remb that dae she held my hand... she teared.. i don noe whether if it was a happi tear to noe that his grandson, James has a gf or wat.. but now its sad to c her leave this world.. but i noe she will be in good hands of the Lord.. =)

anyway.. it was a sad dae yesterdae.. i don wan to elaborate further... jus hope grandmama Agatha will be happi up there.. n wif wings n halo too! =)

sori baby.. yesterdae i was stil a lil down from our quarrel.. don get angree k.. =)

luv u..

*rite.. i'm goin to shower now.. then go school lo!*

nice quarrel we had.. a mean n tough 1....

realize u nv like those lil moments i gave u.. its ok.. i understand.. u juz wan us to b normal.. well.. i wil definitely b more understanding from now on..

huggles..

gd nite

i wil juz keep it plain n simple

-numb, don wan to care, don wan to bother.. leave u alone to do wateva u like.. slp.. game.. eat.. u choose u please.. u quiet or tired i don wan to ask.. i'll juz leave u alone.. i don wan to make u angree.. i'll juz keep total QUIET!-

*tired alr*

no mood to blog abt anything else

its saturdae.. a v lazi saturdae it iz...

my uncle is sitting next to mi.. reading every article on the newspaper.. not even missin 1.. lol.. n he reads it out.. but not v loudly.. juz to himself.. heee..

anyway... i owe alot to this uncle of mine.. he was the 1 who tot mi how to do well in maths for my PSLE! lol.. *my saviour* his brain iz like pentium 5.. super duper gd in maths! >.<

well.. my mum? she's fast aslp on the sofa alr.. lol.. she's supposed to b practising on her book-keeping stuff.. but end up she gave up n decided to slump on the sofa.. *SLEEP!* her fav hobby! LOL..

n as for mi? i doin nothin.. i suppose to do proj.. but i'm tired.. n not in the groove to do anything.. listening to my fav male singer.. Jay Chou's cd on my laptop.. nice song he has.. lol..

anyway.. i've got another MAKAN MOMENTS for ur again...

heard of WEN DAO SHI? or Wan Dou Sek (in cantonese)? or 126? lol..

its a v. fast Dim Sum stall located @ Geylang Lorong 17.... lol.. it serve reali v nice har-gao.. n those fried items.. woOoO! so mani items.. i don noe how to tell u all..

i went to the dim sum stall this morning to hav my supper wif dear n his fren.. DoggyMaster.. lol.. thats his nickname.. wooooOo.. the food there iz juz so nice.. *sori i din take any pics of their food.. coz the moment food came.. i was juz going crazy for it.. eating everything that comes to the table* lol..

well.. other than nice n gd food.. the Chrysanthemum tea they serve iz v nice tooo.. not too bitter but juz nice.. v sweet actually.. lol.. OOooH! so nice.. *drools*

oh.. u heard of a restaurant @ Geylang where pple called them You Tiao Da Wang?

i went there to eat after i had my dim sum.. every1 sae that they hav the nicest Dou Hua.. n You Tiao.. well.. the You Tiao they hav is reali long n big.. n all r hand made n cooked on the spot.. * cool* but.. i din hav a v nice dessert time there.. coz the person who took our order was so mean to the 3 of us.. she asked us for our order in such an unfrenly manner.. nv even show us the menu.. expecting us to noe everything like that.. how rude.. but undoubtedly their dou hua iz reali nice.. though i was too full to try their you tiao.. but seriously? does you tiao reali go that well wif dou hua? *hmmMmm*

oh well.. i'm not sure what i'm gonna do for the rest of the dae actually.. gonna end here.. =)

*rush for proj now!*

*sobz* i din get the chance to go service my car todae... i woke up late n had to use the car to get mi to sch super duper quickly.. oh well.. i hope to send my car for servicing later (fridae)

well.. todae's lesson was pretty boring.. lol.. i slept thru the 3hrs Microeconomics cls.. amazing! not reali 3hrs la.. mayb arnd 1 hr of it iz taken up slping.. i cudnt help it.. i'm juz pure tired.. n the lesson was reali boring.. lol.. most of my frenz oso fell aslp.. =)

well.. sister cried todae.. i feel terrible when she called mi on the phone cryin.. complaining to mi how terrible my bro-in-law iz like.. =( i cudnt do anything abt it.. coz it was their problem.. i wish to help.. i tried suggestin mani ways to help my sis solve the prob.. but stil in the end i cant.. coz the problem is that. .my bro-in-law went to update the new Norton Antivirus on my sis's work com.. my sis nv do any back-up saving.. thus.. losing all her valuable information for the company.. my sis was so angree she shouted @ my bro-in-law.. the worse iz my bro-in-law don wan own up iz his fault.. coz there cant b any1 else deleting away the files other than him.. he was the last 1 to touch the com..

well.. ever since they got married.. my bro-in-law has been a different person.. he wud make my sis do things that my sis don like.. which i m reali not happi abt as a sister.. =(

so after sch i went to look for my sis.. tried to retrieve all her previous documents.. but to no avail.. they were deleted.. cant b retrieve alr.. =( so i stayed @ sis's office to help her do her paperwrk.. i typed out all her document as fast as i cud.. lol..

well.. i spent like 3 overs hrs wif my sis from her office to her main HQ office.. hahah.. so much petrol wasted... but its all worth it.. as long as my sis don cry can alr.. =)

i tot i cud buy some nice authentic indian food from my sis HQ office area.. but she said i was crazy to buy any food from her area there.. lol.. so i drove back to Hougang to buy dinner for mi n dear... lol..

anyway.. i don like buyin food.. cant stand the after-smell of food on my clothin.. makes mi wan to puke.. but no choice..when dear iz hungry.. smell or no smell.. i wil stil go buy.. don wan make his tummy hungry.. =)

hee.. todae.. i super on budget @ school.. i had onli spent $3 for the whole dae.. i spent this $3 on my breakfast.. my lunch was juz a simple piece of watermelon.. heheh! well.. i was definitely hungry after school.. luckily sis office had some porridge.. *yummy* super save $ lol

anyway... i went wif dear to his grandma's wake.. =( v sad.. i saw all his relatives.. all v true devoted Catholics.. well.. i felt a bit out of place even though they all noe mi.. i stil feel out.. lol.. during the prayers.. we sang and said some holy prayers.. but during the whole prayers thingy.. i was quiet most of the time.. coz i din noe how to sing their songs nor say some of their holy prayers.. some of them were staring @ mi @ y i din sing.. *so awkward*
there was this lady standing behind mi.. i noe she's 1 true devoted Catholic.. but the way she sang.. i cudnt help but look @ her... dear oso did the same thing... we were wonderin y she had to sing so loudly n sing until.. u noe... like.. that =/
when every1 finish the prayers n stuff.. some of them walked up to the coffin to hav a last look @ grandmama.. i din dare to c.. coz i was too afraid.. i'm afraid of such things.. i wil hav nightmare.. no offense dear.. but i'm v scared.. thats y i nudge u to leave.. sori!

well.. dear wont b wrkin tml... thats gd.. can go find him after sch.. miss him loads rite now.. he's so engross in the VCD he rented.. (Shao Nian Zhang San Feng) lol.. how adorable of him..

well i shall end here..

*ps: i took a photo of yesterdae's cookin session's result.. lol!

i feel like bloggin b4 i head to bed.. even though i'm tired n slpy... but i stil wan to blog...

wat a dae i had..

todae's test was a chaos... i nv like it.. =(

i feel like cryin when i think abt it... i studied.. i rembered.. but when i saw my test paper.. i had actually forgotten abt everything! =( i don like it.. my heart stil hurts when i think abt it.. i noe most of my clsmates all noe how to do.. but i juz don noe.. =(

well... test over.. gd thing was we manage to leave school early todae.. coz my teacher decided not to teach us for the last period.. haha... *gd gd*

well.. after i had a good shower.. went to dear's pl to keep him company.. i oso needed his company too.. needed to get the awful feelin of the horrid test i did todae off my chest.. well.. its definitely nice to be @ his arm..

i cooked for dear todae.. it was a not so bad dinner... dear was bz wif his CS while i was eatin in his room.. but i don blame him.. its ok.. used to it... coz his fren always wan him to play game.. n oso dear din expect mi to cook so fast.. n oso dear seldom get the chance to play.. so i let him play lo...

i cooked Pasta.. wif tomato based sauce.. i added mushroom n chunks of tomato in it.. hee...

to top it up.. i cooked bacon too.. v nice.. crispy..

other than pasta.. i cooked mushroom omelette and calamari.. lol.. my calamari iz weird.. all the coatin sort of like came off.. well i din hav it deep fried in a fryer.. but instead i juz cooked it normally like how u cooked an egg on a pan.. lol

well.. cookin was fun... but buyin the ingredients wasnt...

thinkin abt it.. i stil feel sad about the conversation i had wif dear... i stil can remb it til now.. =(

"do i sayang u too much?" n "y do u like to hug mi so much" these r the qns dear asked mi earlier on.. i don noe y.. but when i heard these 2 qns.. i felt a sharp pain in my heart.. i cudnt help but feel sad n reali unhappi.. in the end.. i cried.. i asked myself.. y dear had to ask mi that.. wat made him think he had sayang mi too much.. where? in wat ways? =(

i hug u dear.. bcoz i luv u.. i noe i like to sae i love u to u alot.. but i believe @ times.. i noe u don like mi to sae that.. so my other way of tellin u i love u.. i wud hug u.. thats y i luv to u so much.. well.. when u asked mi that qns.. i felt like huggin u has become a sin.. i don feel like huggin u so much anymore.. reali.. i'm juz so afraid of makin u sick of mi.. *sobz*

i guess something ought to b made lesser..

well.. i noe u r tired but y? y u wan ask mi such things.. =( haiz.. nvm.. lets drop this subject...

well.. i'm watchin YU LE BAI FEN BAI on channel U... xiao Zhu n ai-shah were tokin abt how lovers keep each other warm durin cold weathers.. watchin all the different style to make ur other half feel warm iz so sweet n romantic.. but spore got no cold weather.. so.. nvm.. haiz...

gonna send my no good car to service again.. its not service actually.. but to repair my car's air con.. its the 2nd time alr the air con has gone crazy.. its reali gettin on my nerves now!

i guess i wan go slp.. i reali got no mood.. i juz feel like cryin onli...

*i don wan go sch anymore*

*we r gettin more n more tough on this road now*

* amanda
* angelina
* aziela
* chelle
* cindy
* dan
* darrel
* dian lestari
* gerselle
* huiwen
* iskandar
* jowin
* julie
* june
* lawrence
* lijun
* naomi
* nicholas
* qisheng
* shanwen
* shuying's xanga
* shuying


* VS's Angel: Alessandra Ambrosio
* Blessed Haven's recipe
* friendster no. 1
* friendster no. 2
* multiply
* liverpool


* my favourite: Victoria's Secret
* get BLUSHEd.'s accessories
* Luv Shoppy
* miss dejavu
* Nixus Flava
* raveon
* SHOPPERSPREE :]<3
* t he .JI A MI N . s ho p
* Tinkerbelle Shoppe
* trinityknots.


* Audi A8 car
* Lexus GS 300
* New laptop
* Be an SIA stewardess
* *if not* Be a wedding planner
* Puppy! *breed wise? beta consult mi 1st!
* Victoria's Secret lingerie or clothin
* X-BOX 360 for my dearie's birthdae!
* Hope dearie can get his driver's license asap!


* DEARIE!

* eeyore
* mil mil
* travelling
* meeting up with my dearie
* having good food
* sleeping
* mushrooms
* sambal sotong from blk 85
* cooking
* dearie's instant noodle
* driving
* dogs
* sirloin steak = medium rare
* teppanyaki
* korean love show
* takin photos
* prawns cooked in any style
* bacon cooked by dearie
* mashed potato
* thinly sliced beef wrapped with Enoki mushroom
* brazil churrascaria's food!
* sashimi


I don wan to miss these impt dates!

* Mine : 09 Nov 1985

* Dear : 26 August 1982

* Mildred : 24 July 1986
* Ben : 23 August 1981
* Nic : 17 Oct 1983
* Sis : 06 Nov 1979


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