i juz cudnt help but not cry when i think abt wat had happened todae...
so much unhappi n v idiotic things happen to mi...
1st.. i had to endure my fren who sits bside mi kind of behaviour... i don noe y.. but the way she eat.. tok to mi.. drink.. move.. tickle mi.. n even that smoke stench from her breathe which irks mi so much.. i don noe y..
i hav nv dislike those bad habits of hers.. but these few daes those stuff has been gettin on my nerves.. i don noe. .i wan to change this.. mayb its of my PMS.. *haiz*
2ndly.. i got the chance to meet dear todae.. but stil we ended up quarreling.. not his fault. juz was mine....
b4 i met up wif dear.. we were msgin each other.. i wan to c him.. but he was tired.. then when he wanted to c mi.. i din wan to coz i noe dear iz tired.. n this made him a lil angree.. ok.. nvm.. then when i drove to Bencoolen Square (beside Sim Lim Sq) to pick up dear.. i was wonderin... m i goin to send him back or juz eat then i go to wrk.. well.. i guess i knew the ans.. dear was tired.. though he suggested he wan to eat wif mi.. but i noe he was tired after wrk n the small shoppin spree @ Sim Lim..
finally reach dear pl.. i noe he was reali tired.. but i juz do not noe y i was in such a black face mood.. too black alr.. like Bao Zhen.. i cried when dear was abt to leave.. he then got angree wif mi cryin bcoz i was startin to presume things.. like i presume that he was unhappi wif our rltnship.. unhappi wif mi n mani other things.. dear got so angree that he shouted @ mi in the car.. it scared mi when his tone got too stern.. =(
well... i hugged dear b4 he left the car.. but he din hug mi @ all.. i don noe y.. but he cud hav juz put down that curry puff packet he was holdin in one of his hand to hug mi.. but i din even feel his hands arnd my back.. but it was juz mi huggin him so tight.. haiz.. nvm... *forget it* =
but in the end we're ok after a few msges.. haiz..
3rd.. it has been 3 daes wrkin @ sis's place.. n i'm gettin more n more frustrated wif everything.. the way thing iz running. .their system.. pple scoldin mi on the phone for NO REASON juz bcoz they lost their baggage.. iz that my prob? but y i stil cant cope wif the work load there... i'm reali tired to the core alr.. haiz.. i cried 3 times juz bcoz of work.. my sis doesnt wan to hear my explaination abt the mistake i did but instead she juz reprimand mi like that.. haiz.. v unfair.. =( my bro-in-law's mum iz so mean.. she wud scold mi in front of all the customer.. pin-pointing on my mistake.. this is so demoralizing.. i cudnt take it.. i tot when i c my sis i can cry out.. but instead i got scolded for cryin.. but its reali so unfair...
dad doesnt wan mi to wrk there anymore.. i reali hope to.. but i don wan c sis strugglin w/o havin sufficient amt of manpower.. i don wan to c her suffer.. she's my sis but yet i reali hated the way she was treatin mi.. =( *sobs* i juz wish she cud listen to mi.. n console mi...
i finally learn something.. iz when i wan to cry.. DON SHOW OUT MY EMOTION.. i'm tired of quarrellin wif pple for scoldin mi to stop crying.. i don wan it anymore... wateva prob i stil prefer to keep it to myself.. i don wan to tell anybody abt my unhappi stuff alr.. no matter how unhappi.. i wil juz cry in the toilet n write them in the blog.. thats it.. i reali had enuff..
i tot when i called u.. u cud listen n console.. or juz simply tolerate mi cryin on the phone while i vent out my unhappi stuff to u on the phone.. but instead u juz said to mi on the phone in such fierce tone.. that work is like that.. n u told mi to stop cryin.. how can i stop.. i'm a ger.. i'm not like u so strong can tahan!!! i cant.. =(
my mood now iz reali super duper ultimately down.. i cant stop cryin now.. reali.. i'm like in such down shitty mood.. haiz...
i think i wil stop here now..thats all the unhappi thing that had happened to mi.. =(
so much unhappi n v idiotic things happen to mi...
1st.. i had to endure my fren who sits bside mi kind of behaviour... i don noe y.. but the way she eat.. tok to mi.. drink.. move.. tickle mi.. n even that smoke stench from her breathe which irks mi so much.. i don noe y..
i hav nv dislike those bad habits of hers.. but these few daes those stuff has been gettin on my nerves.. i don noe. .i wan to change this.. mayb its of my PMS.. *haiz*
2ndly.. i got the chance to meet dear todae.. but stil we ended up quarreling.. not his fault. juz was mine....
b4 i met up wif dear.. we were msgin each other.. i wan to c him.. but he was tired.. then when he wanted to c mi.. i din wan to coz i noe dear iz tired.. n this made him a lil angree.. ok.. nvm.. then when i drove to Bencoolen Square (beside Sim Lim Sq) to pick up dear.. i was wonderin... m i goin to send him back or juz eat then i go to wrk.. well.. i guess i knew the ans.. dear was tired.. though he suggested he wan to eat wif mi.. but i noe he was tired after wrk n the small shoppin spree @ Sim Lim..
finally reach dear pl.. i noe he was reali tired.. but i juz do not noe y i was in such a black face mood.. too black alr.. like Bao Zhen.. i cried when dear was abt to leave.. he then got angree wif mi cryin bcoz i was startin to presume things.. like i presume that he was unhappi wif our rltnship.. unhappi wif mi n mani other things.. dear got so angree that he shouted @ mi in the car.. it scared mi when his tone got too stern.. =(
well... i hugged dear b4 he left the car.. but he din hug mi @ all.. i don noe y.. but he cud hav juz put down that curry puff packet he was holdin in one of his hand to hug mi.. but i din even feel his hands arnd my back.. but it was juz mi huggin him so tight.. haiz.. nvm... *forget it* =
but in the end we're ok after a few msges.. haiz..
3rd.. it has been 3 daes wrkin @ sis's place.. n i'm gettin more n more frustrated wif everything.. the way thing iz running. .their system.. pple scoldin mi on the phone for NO REASON juz bcoz they lost their baggage.. iz that my prob? but y i stil cant cope wif the work load there... i'm reali tired to the core alr.. haiz.. i cried 3 times juz bcoz of work.. my sis doesnt wan to hear my explaination abt the mistake i did but instead she juz reprimand mi like that.. haiz.. v unfair.. =( my bro-in-law's mum iz so mean.. she wud scold mi in front of all the customer.. pin-pointing on my mistake.. this is so demoralizing.. i cudnt take it.. i tot when i c my sis i can cry out.. but instead i got scolded for cryin.. but its reali so unfair...
dad doesnt wan mi to wrk there anymore.. i reali hope to.. but i don wan c sis strugglin w/o havin sufficient amt of manpower.. i don wan to c her suffer.. she's my sis but yet i reali hated the way she was treatin mi.. =( *sobs* i juz wish she cud listen to mi.. n console mi...
i finally learn something.. iz when i wan to cry.. DON SHOW OUT MY EMOTION.. i'm tired of quarrellin wif pple for scoldin mi to stop crying.. i don wan it anymore... wateva prob i stil prefer to keep it to myself.. i don wan to tell anybody abt my unhappi stuff alr.. no matter how unhappi.. i wil juz cry in the toilet n write them in the blog.. thats it.. i reali had enuff..
i tot when i called u.. u cud listen n console.. or juz simply tolerate mi cryin on the phone while i vent out my unhappi stuff to u on the phone.. but instead u juz said to mi on the phone in such fierce tone.. that work is like that.. n u told mi to stop cryin.. how can i stop.. i'm a ger.. i'm not like u so strong can tahan!!! i cant.. =(
my mood now iz reali super duper ultimately down.. i cant stop cryin now.. reali.. i'm like in such down shitty mood.. haiz...
i think i wil stop here now..thats all the unhappi thing that had happened to mi.. =(
thats how heart-pain n sad i m.. i juz cant stop cryin... u're every page of my imagination
maymay <3 jamjam
